Play Dead

This guy knows how to play dead for real. Ashton Holmes played roles that are key persons but then die on the latter part of the story. I don’t know what is with him but the roles he auditioned for seems to have death sentence on them. They ended up badly even though the characters were good guys.

 

The first time I saw him was in Nikita Season 1, a series about a former agent who went rogue from a dirty branch of government that trained but she wants to destroy. I saw him the second time on Wind Chill wherein someone's past doesn't want to stay past so it haunted this guy and gal who were on their way home for holidays. The third time was in The Divide, a story about survivors stuck in a basement of a building because of nuclear attack.

 

This entry is just a feature composition that I wanted to share because I noticed this little detail. Until next time. Cheers!

I Know...

I have high respect for people who have different belief. I know that at this point of time, people are celebrating something that varies from one religion to the other. I know it, trust me. I know that what we will be visiting are just remains. I am not giving importance to what’s left physically stored in boxes, but it was my personal decision to continue my visit because I want to spend some time to remember them. How often do I do that? Guess what? I got more. I was able to meet the others and bond. I was tired but I am contented. It wasn’t a waste of time.

Acceptance

"I really was trying to make it work. In my own way... I guess. It's time to face reality."

-Dexter Morgan

"Akala ko kasi makakatulong ako sa inyong lahat e... Na-realize ko hindi ko pala kayo kayang tulungan lahat. I can try pero dapat tulungan nyo rin sarili nyo. Pumalpak yung tulong ko e. May kanya-kanya kayong problema. Sorry ha?"

-Nathan Matriponio, First Day High

I have learned to accept everything about them and everything that has happened. I am proud to say that I have finally moved on.

I tried... I really tried. With all the problems that we encountered, I presented solutions that I knew would work out but in the end, it didn't. I know I have to be considerate as someone who is in charge of the group. However, I didn't have a choice anymore. The "understanding" grace period was way beyond the limit. I had to become straight forward - I had to be strict. I had to do it even though I'm not that kind of person and even though I knew that some of my actions were wrong. What else can I do? I gave everything I have and I sacrificed a lot and what did I get and feel in return? That it was all wasted. Maybe, just maybe, doing something opposite, say reverse psychology, would make a difference. Unfortunately, nothing good came out of it and still, nothing changed.

You know, we talked many times, as in every after class, and I believe it is the one positive result of this dilemma. I'm fine with it because we communicate and I became more open. We actually understand each other but definitely, our actions didn't prove it. So, there is one last option left, I have to meet them half way - I had to step down.

Now, there is no point in becoming angry or expressing my disappointment. I learned in the past that they are exactly what will happen over and over again. Well, I surrendered already so I am going to live my life and just see this through until it ends.

You can't say I didn't care because all I did was care.

"Nice guys have the toughest jobs, Nathan."

-Investigator Matriponio

The Bay Harbor Butcher*

"I was filled with dread at the thought that my mind had skipped town

and left me behind to pay the rent."

...and I'm done! Reading this book until the last page was very entertaining. I am interested with Dexter's character and so, I was interested to find how things will go for him. I also would like to add that along the way, he provided thoughts that are funny for me. There's no question that I'll continue reading.

That's it for now. What can I do? I don't know what else to say because until now, I am fascinated by the story that it left me speechless. Well, until the next entry. Cheers!

"I was completely unable to fling my giant brain at the problem

and catch a solution as it bounced back.

The mind picks some very bad times to take a walk, doesn't it?"

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*The Bay Harbor Butcher - the term given by the press to the serial killer alter ego of Dexter

The Big Shift

I am caught by the surprise that my interest went from novels to other reading materials by just a blink. Nevertheless, I think this big shift is a great thing.

I have a lot of novels that are on "bench" because I'm on the process of collecting books but has not enough time to read them. I don't regret that. I do that to those books that I've looked for so long, those that I do not want to let go of. At least, I already have them and come the time that I'm available, I can easily reach and grab them and start right away. Suddenly, my interest went to official movie companion, mass communication, art, comics, self development, and magazines among others.

As of now, they are starting to compile on my bookshelves and I like the idea because change is good from time to time. Cheers! :))

Still the Best Policy

As my brother leaves for a job interview, my mother reminded him of some pointers while at it. Hearing her words, it came to my mind the famous saying that "honesty is the best policy."

In my case, I only care a little of what the result will become for as long as I know that what I did was necessary, that I was true to myself.

During my third year college in second semester, a professor in one of my class told us, (actually, it was directed to me for even though it is a group work, my name, face, and fingerprints are all over my work; very distinct to trace it back to me) not to narrate, to just give what we have. In my work's context, it simply means don't be so honest.

In my defense, I don't regret it because I learned what I need to learn. I know how and when to be professional. I didn't regret taking the risk. My grade somehow got affected by it but I know being honest will get me way far ahead in the long run than what was said.

Honesty's result can be proved in the same timeline in another subject. The professor even said, "It's good that you're honest. At least I know."

See the difference?

This is different in my mentality that when someone borrows something from me, I tell them I don't have it. Why? It's because what's the difference if I tell you I have and then I won't lend it to you? The reason for this is I am very careful of my things and sad to say, I stereotype to all that however neat it maybe when I give it to them, the truth is it will not always return the same way and it hurts me a lot because for the long time that I had it with me, it never occurred to me to damage it and that's just what others will do.

The bottomline? It's still a case to case basis. What I'm trying to say is be honest in things that really matter. Take a risk, but not over the relationship that you've already built with them. Weigh things because most often than not, honesty is STILL the best policy.

Dexter

Garrett: You don’t have a dark side.

Theresa: Sure I do. Everyone does.
It’s just that when you’re around, it
likes to keep itself hidden.

-excerpt from "Message in the Bottle"
by Nicholas Sparks

This is totally awesome. I love the character; it is very brilliant.

A friend of mine once said that it is brutal, but I find it very, very interesting now that I've already watched it. Okay, I admit it - tt is sort of brutal, but I don't mind it at all. In some ways, I am similar to him but I tell you for sure that I do not drive a dark passenger.

I came to view this story in series because of my brother and now that I want it, I downloaded eBooks to find out how it was first written and I discovered that its structure is equally magnificent. It is a poetic narration from a first person point-of-view as another friend described it and I agree with that.

Now, in relation to the aforementioned conversation from another book, it is reflected in the character of Dexter, a "very neat monster" as Jeffry Lindsay puts it in his book series in which the first one was entitled "Darkly Dreaming Dexter." I will create a separate entry once I finish reading it.

Though the story is bloody, a lot of lessons can be truly learned. Even those that you already know will be better realized and reinforced.

Viewer discretion is still advise because definitely, its content is for mature audience.