Acceptance

"I really was trying to make it work. In my own way... I guess. It's time to face reality."

-Dexter Morgan

"Akala ko kasi makakatulong ako sa inyong lahat e... Na-realize ko hindi ko pala kayo kayang tulungan lahat. I can try pero dapat tulungan nyo rin sarili nyo. Pumalpak yung tulong ko e. May kanya-kanya kayong problema. Sorry ha?"

-Nathan Matriponio, First Day High

I have learned to accept everything about them and everything that has happened. I am proud to say that I have finally moved on.

I tried... I really tried. With all the problems that we encountered, I presented solutions that I knew would work out but in the end, it didn't. I know I have to be considerate as someone who is in charge of the group. However, I didn't have a choice anymore. The "understanding" grace period was way beyond the limit. I had to become straight forward - I had to be strict. I had to do it even though I'm not that kind of person and even though I knew that some of my actions were wrong. What else can I do? I gave everything I have and I sacrificed a lot and what did I get and feel in return? That it was all wasted. Maybe, just maybe, doing something opposite, say reverse psychology, would make a difference. Unfortunately, nothing good came out of it and still, nothing changed.

You know, we talked many times, as in every after class, and I believe it is the one positive result of this dilemma. I'm fine with it because we communicate and I became more open. We actually understand each other but definitely, our actions didn't prove it. So, there is one last option left, I have to meet them half way - I had to step down.

Now, there is no point in becoming angry or expressing my disappointment. I learned in the past that they are exactly what will happen over and over again. Well, I surrendered already so I am going to live my life and just see this through until it ends.

You can't say I didn't care because all I did was care.

"Nice guys have the toughest jobs, Nathan."

-Investigator Matriponio

The Bay Harbor Butcher*

"I was filled with dread at the thought that my mind had skipped town

and left me behind to pay the rent."

...and I'm done! Reading this book until the last page was very entertaining. I am interested with Dexter's character and so, I was interested to find how things will go for him. I also would like to add that along the way, he provided thoughts that are funny for me. There's no question that I'll continue reading.

That's it for now. What can I do? I don't know what else to say because until now, I am fascinated by the story that it left me speechless. Well, until the next entry. Cheers!

"I was completely unable to fling my giant brain at the problem

and catch a solution as it bounced back.

The mind picks some very bad times to take a walk, doesn't it?"

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*The Bay Harbor Butcher - the term given by the press to the serial killer alter ego of Dexter