Satisfying (11:29; 09:25)

Waiting...
that's what all people who lives in Cavite do.

Staring...

that's what I can do in this heavy traffic.

Sleeping...

well, everybody's tired from today's activities AND THIS HEAVY TRAFFIC.

Suffering...

I am from the pain brought about by this headache.

Smiling...

I saw this cute literally smiling Mazda.

Doubting...

should I take his picture? The driver might see me.

Writing...

that's what I end up doing.

Ending...

I regret it, but I still got home. Thank God. Good night! :D

Restricted Freedom

After everything we've been through, we deserve a semestral break. We need REST! After all, this is what everyone’s looking forward to. Semestral break... Wow! How good that sounds. :) Getting the grade report would just definitely come second - in my opinion. XD

The problem of the majority when it is already sem break is being “broken” in a sense that one, there is no allowance, and two, boredom strikes. I don’t have any problem on my own. One, I have savings and two, I always have something to do. it may be repetitive, but I certainly enjoy every moment of it and I’m used to it.

The only thing that I worry during sem break is getting everything back to normal. Sleep cycle, bath time, proper time management, etc. All that concerns the daily routine are at risk. I fear that now that we have a lot of time, some people would have the tendency that instead of getting enough rest that you desired during school days, you would prefer to do all the things you missed to do because you just can’t while there are still classes. Right now, I’m making this entry because I am still awake because I am really having a hard time sleeping. My worry is already here!

Look at it this way. People don’t have any problem with time anymore because presently, we have it all in our hands. People can sleep whenever they want, not just whenever they need. It’s now a matter of whenever wanted. The sad part is that, the thing that I have in mind, my body clock is pretty messed up, not operating like it’s supposed to. It is so hard to get it back to its proper running time. It’s been what... more than a week now since I can sleep only after breakfast? All the time when I was lying in the bed in the early hours of the new day were useless. I am asleep during daytime and I am awake during night time. What does that make of me, a bat?

The only solution I am thinking is the resume of classes, hoping that it will make everything better.

So, yes, this is semestral break life... because we have freedom... with consequences.

Collector's Edition

(Photo not mine. I just found it in the internet from a long time ago.)

Some books are expensive. We cannot avoid that. But for someone like me, who is quite a book worm, I managed to collect books that are of my interest, so far, mainly bought at cheaper prices. I am contented with them even if they look like old or torn or damaged. The important thing for me is that I have my copy. Hehehe... Proper maintainance is the key after acquiring them. :))

If ever that I decided not to buy, I have my sources. I download e-books. However, it is not going that well because I haven’t finished at least one book yet reading in a computer because it is tiring and it hurts my eyes. But the thing is, I have it with me already if it so happens that I have no more book at hand to read. I have dozens of options to choose from, many are best sellers of known authors. :D

Buying school books is no problem because they are required. But if one of your hobbies is reading and you don’t have enough money to buy so much, you tend to become really resourceful. Other than e-books, you may borrow from your friends. If in case you really like to have a copy of your own, and you are really itching to buy, for someone like me, I learned how to wait. I am glad to say that it all became fruitful. Majority of my collection are those that I really wanted. All I do is be patient, go around the store, and time would really come that they will go to me. Most of them are from Booksale, but not everything can be gathered there. Some comes from National Book Store sales. If you will take a closer look at the prices, you will notice that generally, each are worth a hundred pesos or less. That’s my collector’s edition and I am really enjoying them. :))

New Life Eh?

“Life stinks, so hold your nose.”

According to Callum Innes, private detective is different from private investigator. The first “solves the case” while the latter “just looks into it.” Having said that, P.I. doesn't interfere. He just observes. Cal Innes was a P.I. and when he was asked if P.I. beat people because he did, his defense was “They do if they’re pissed.” This is how Ray Banks put it in his book entitled “Saturday’s Child.”

I still remember how I acquired the book. I bought it from Booksale along Pedro Gil when I still don’t feel like going home just yet. It’s kind of near from school so I paid it a visit before I went home. It was still kind of early that time, so why not right?

I was browsing each section in the big room. Some didn't have labels, but I still managed. I think only a few people were there by that time. There were three women chatting around the cashier. They work there. Then I found it. I wasn't really sure about it at first. But, what’s to lose when it is already hard bound at a cheap price? As I come near them, they stopped talking and said to each other, “Don’t block the way. That’s why no people buy.” Or something like that or along that thought. They were all excited. I was laughing inside, not showing it because it was rude to laugh in that situation. it would be weird and awkward. and it would really seem disrespectful. I hand over the book. What did they got excited for? A 5php book. That’s why i was grinning inside. :P

Anyway, I like the book. It’s something new to me - the way the two characters that narrate the story uses different style of languages. The difference in personalities is very distinct. It’s not the first book though that uses the style of alternate narrations. The first one I read was 'The Hardy Boys.'

The first character, which I like better, uses simple English. Plain and simple, easy to understand. That was Cal. The other one is kind of gangster lingo. I had a hard time with it because I ain't no gangsta so I don’t don't speak like one an' I don’t understand much when I encounter one. Haha! I just got the hang of it. XD

I took note of the anger management ideas from it. When Cal was still in jail, he took a that course. Their group leader said that “First, don’t try to ‘laugh off’ your problems... Rather, use humour to help you face your problems more constructively... Second, don’t give in to harsh, sarcastic humour, that’s just another form of unhealthy anger expression.” It makes sense.

Cal chose a new life, from being a prisoner to a private investigator after he got released when his friend got him a parole. But in the end, the things that he’s doing in P.I. were the things that brought him back to prison. He is smart, thinks of the things he does. He even thought that “early morning silence gives you space to think, even if you don’t want to” and he is aware that “money’s a bitch for bringing the worst out of people, especially when they've got an addiction to feed.”

He knew what he got himself into. His friend tried to stop him, lecturing him an’ all. He said, “I get it.” The thing is, he still went for it. His friend replied, “Nah, mate, I don’t think you get it all.” So, where did that bring Cal? Into trouble.

So, with that in mind, it should always be remembered that decision making takes time. Don’t just decide right away. Think! Cal’s new life isn't a new life at all. If before he gets into trouble, he still gets into trouble now. He may chose to change the way he lives, but nothing is really new there. What’s new is if he’s living a normal life, away from the danger. There should be at least some peace even if the past will haunt him. He should have moved forward. He has a friend who stood by him. As Cal puts it, “He saw something in me I couldn't see in myself.” It was a start he chose to ignore. Don’t do that to your friends. You shouldn't let them go and ignore the. Who knows? They might be rare nowadays. So, you’re lucky if you have one. Value them. :))

It Is Time

So this is how it feels? It’s nice. At first, I was really nervous. But after a while, it slowly faded. I got used to it. There’s nothing new actually. It was like it was just normal. It is likable. But once is enough. I've learned my lesson. It won’t happen again.