Down Time

He could lie here and simply think. His favourite occupation.

–Eion Colfer, Artemis Fowl: Opal Deception

 

Every Sunday, when I was still working with my first job, there is this thing called “down time.” Basically, it means system maintenance and with that, we cannot use our computers for a certain period of time. That term, “down time,” is appropriate right now for what I am feeling, not because I cannot use my computer but because I cannot seem to function myself.

 

Down time can be caused by “what if…” I was able to confirm that staying too much at home doing nothing most of the time, or at least looking for something to do, can be very toxic. You have nothing else to do but think. Looking at an excerpt from Artemis Fowl above, that is how exactly I grew up. So, I can be described as an overthinker.

 

The best solution that exists is to pray. The other option I that comes after that is to listen to music. Other than Christian music, below are titles that contain what I feel. The first three songs convey negativity. It is followed by the fourth that portrays hope. The rest that comes after until the end, sustains hope and turns on positivity. You may try to listen to them and see the meaning within. The right time will come that I’ll be back to normal and I can say, “Systems up!”

 

~Broken by Lifehouse

~The Scientist by Coldplay

~Keep Holding On by Avril Lavigne

~Let Me Go by Avril Lavigne feat. Chad Kroeger

~Give Your Heart A Break by Demi Lovato

~On Top of the World by Imagine Dragons

~Phoenix Burn by Alpha Rev

~Somewhere Only We Know by Keane

~Shake It Off by Taylor Swift

~Suddenly I See by KT Tunstall

~Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

~Radioactive by Imagine Dragons

~Stronger by Kelly Clarkson

~Smile by Avril Lavigne

~Life Is Good by Junk