Premonition

I have watched the movie Premonition once before. I can’t recall when but I believe it’s been quite a long time already.

And just like before, I haven’t understood the full details of the story. All I know is its plot, how it started and how it ended. But in the middle of the movie, I know how it went, but I didn’t focus on the details. I believe my mind processed only selected parts and I don’t know why.

Anyway, all I have to do is react, right? I got plenty of it.

Being an avid film viewer, I have watched a lot of movies that involved tragedies. Premonition may be associated with Final Destination, Deja Vu, and Flash Forward. In all of them, characters knew what will happen in the future.

For one thing, it’s not easy being in a position of someone being able to foresee the future. It is very difficult. How will you react to it? How will you keep it? And say for example you’ve decided to share it to people involved, how will you say it? It affects your emotional side greatly. Someone or people you love and care for are at risk.

As I have observed, when you tell others what you know, it tends to become the main reason for the event/accident to happen. And since they know that you knew it, they will think of you as a suspect. On the other hand, if you choose to keep quiet and keep it a secret, it bothers you inside resulting for your disturbing treatment of others which will lead them to keep on asking ‘What is wrong? What is bothering you? Did I do something wrong?’

As I watched the movie, going back to the future, then to reality, and then back to future is kind of messing up my head. What more to the main character right? Once you share your story with others, they will think that you are crazy. But I admire what she had done. Facing it with courage even though at first, of course, it made her wonder what was happening. The only thing that I see as a regret is that when her husband already had a change of heart from what he was doing, it still ended up as what she saw, her husband died.

As I have read a quote, it says “Drive carefully. Why die in perfect health?” It makes sense. But if it is really his time, there’s nothing we can do but to accept it. But, everybody knows that it’s a lot better for it to have happened UNFORESEEN.

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The Difference

I got up early one morning,

and rushed right into the day;

I had so much to accomplish

that I didn't have time to pray.

Problems just tumbled about me,

and heavier came each task.

"Why doesn't God help me?" I wondered.

He answered, "You didn't ask."

I wanted to see joy and beauty,

but the day toiled on, gray and bleak;

I wondered why God didn't show me,

He said, "But you didn't seek."

I tried to come into God's presence;

I used all my keys at the lock.

God gently and lovingly chided,

"My child, you didn't knock."

I woke up early this morning,

and paused before entering the day;

I had so much to accomplish

that I had to take time to pray.

(copied from the frame in front of our dining room)

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Jesus said, "So I say to you: Ask and it will be given

to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door

will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives;

he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."

Luke 11:9-10
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God bless everyone.

The White Eye: Part 2

Under the full moon

I tried to walk silently

Because under its bright light

I see black and white.

The path is still straight,

But it wasn't clear anymore.

There, I fear, are my nightmare when close to me.

I should say, there are a lot of them.

The White Eye: Part 1

Under the full moon,

I tried to walk silently

Because under the bright light,

I see black and white.

The path is clear, straight ahead;

Look at the clock, what time is it?

So with all my strength, myself I help
I hear my constant deafening footsteps.

He is Sam

1. What did you learn about the challenges any new parent faces with a new born?

“I Am Sam” is a beautiful movie. It shows how a parent face challenges of raising child/children, but what makes it different is that the parent is mentally challenged, or what many would like to call straight away as mentally retarded.

I have learned that it will never be easy to become a parent, whether you are very smart or not properly educated, whether you are thinking straight or not. I think, though, that it will be love that will change it all and keep everyone intact.

Babies cry most of the time. Since people become new parent when a child is born, they will not know how to comfort a child until they get used to it. They will always think at the beginning “Oh, what is it? Are you hungry? Did you poop? What’s the matter? Does it hurt somewhere?”

Challenges are unavoidable and it doesn’t just end there. There will come a time that parents will experience financial crisis or if not, the inability to work properly because they have to bring the child to work when no one will be able to take care of it at home.

As shown in the movie, a new parent may also encounter scenarios wherein friends get mad because he forgot that they have a movie night on Thursday, for example.

Furthermore, if people find you incapable of raising the child properly, they take him/her away from you and find someone else to adopt the child. It hurts when someone and something yours is taken away. In the case of Sam, it seemed that he didn’t have the chance to get Lucy back. But nevertheless, he did all his best because he is her father and he is firm about that because she is his daughter. What joy it brought him when in the end, they were together again.

Despite of all of that, even though there are many challenges, I believe that becoming a parent is something to be proud of. The feeling is very different, overwhelming. It is an achievement, most especially when you see them succeed in life.

2. How does Sam cope with his new responsibilities as a parent?

Like everybody else, Sam seeks out help. He is smart but he cannot do things on his own most of the time most especially now that he is a parent. He was able to cope with his new responsibilities with the help of his neighbour Annie. She gives Sam advice whenever there are problems.

Sometimes, it’s his friends who help him in taking care of Lucy. They come over to Sam’s place and play with her. There were also times that the group contributes money when Sam can’t afford something, like when he was buying shoes for Lucy.

His employers helped him in his work at Starbucks first where he got a promotion, then at Pizza Hut where the owner agreed to testify for him.

3. What qualities does he possess? What does he lack?

Sam Dawson, as a mentally retarded person, possesses the characteristic of being able to take care of people and things that are his. He cherishes them. At work, he wants everything in order. He is capable of love, in reaching out to other people as he did with his lawyer Rita.

“I have had a lot of time to think about what it is that makes somebody a good parent. It’s about constancy, and it’s about patience, it’s about listening, and it’s about pretending to listen even when can’t listen anymore. It’s about love... I’m not a perfect parent and sometimes I don’t have enough patience and I forget that he is just a kid. But we built a life together and we love each other and if you destroy that, it will be irreparable.”

However, capable as a 7 year old child is, he doesn’t know what to do on his own. He cannot read. Sometimes he cannot control his emotions most especially if it is negative, more so when he is overwhelmed, either by happiness or sadness or anger. He is sensitive to negativity and that is what triggers the previous statement. He doesn’t also know how to differentiate good people with hooker.

Plus One

“Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to me.”

Today, I declare that I am officially eighteen years old. I am no longer a minor citizen of the Philippines.

I am done with my favourite number, 17. I’ll miss it because another year is added to my age and existence and that means that I am getting older. It is part of life and even though it goes like that, I should be and I AM thankful that God has given me another year to live. Seventeen plus one is a blessing. Thank you Lord. :D